Wednesday, December 31, 2008

King for a Day

Sterling's birthday is in December, as well as a dozen or so other family members. Because December is such a festive, busy, gift-giving time of year, we try to make a conscious effort to make a distinction between Birthday and Christmas. For example, no Christmas wrapping paper on Birthday gifts, which can be a pretty sensitive subject. We also enjoy a few birthday traditions we've started.
FIRST: a special birthday dinner with a RED PLATE & GOBLET. On the menu, per Sterling's request, was Build-your-own taco salad and macaroni salad, washed down with kool-aid and lots of it.
SECOND: Birthday Activity. This is a relatively new tradition which has now survived one year and is starting on its second. Instead of giving gifts for birthdays, we embark on a family activity of the birthday person's choosing. We wanted the focus to be on family togetherness and shared memories and experiences. So far, so good. We'll see how it goes as the children get older.
Sterling's activity of choice was BOWLING! So Fun. Our family enjoys bowling...A LOT!

Some things the Brown kids like about bowling (as demonstrated in the following video):
disco lights
slippery floors
slippery shoes
opportunity to get your groove on
black lights
swinging on the ball slide thingy
big heavy balls
knocking things down with big heavy balls
making faces
spares
lane bumpers
watching for the ball to come up from the chute


What?!? You mean you're supposed to watch where the ball goes and see how many pins you knock down? But there are so many other things that are far more entertaining.

As for me, I just wanted to break 50, which I did, both games. 66 and 74. Yay for me. Camille won game 2 with several strikes and a whopping 116.

Happy Birthday Sterling.

We love you and appreciate all you do for our family. Thanks for a great Birthday Activity.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Look Who's Walking!

Rachel is!!!

My baby is growing up FAST! She clearly prefers walking to me over Sterling, although she did holler out "Dada!" today in church when Sterling stood up to conduct Sacrament meeting. She has even mastered transitioning from sitting to standing/walking. She is just now beginning to prefer walking over crawling and has recently discovered climbing. She is so proud of herself. It seems like she is very aware of the fact that she has mastered a new skill and shares in our delight.

NOTICE:I HEREBY DECLARE FROM NOW THROUGH JANUARY MY DECEMBER CATCH-UP PERIOD. Because, seriously, what else happens in January besides snow snow snow??!

Soon coming to a blog near you:
Ster's birthday
Christmas traditions
Christmas morning reactions
Christmas morning sledding
whatever else I missed

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Kissing Mistletoe

My little girl is growing up. At school they wrote their own book, "The Twelve Days of Christmas."
And I quote: "On the third day of Christmas my true friend gave to me 3 misl stos. (the kidssing kind.)"
WHAT?!?! Who gave her permission to think about mistletoe? The KISSING kind? As if that weren't bad enough, the mistle toe are talking and I quote:
"Kiss" "love is awsome" "love"
As Jenn would say, "MERCY!!!"

civics lesson

Lee Benson's article yesterday, about the shoe thrown at President Bush, was a good read. I won't spend a lot of time on it. I just had two favorite parts.

#1. "OK, everybody calm down for a minute," the president said. "And if you want some — if you want the facts, it's a size 10 shoe that he threw."
Then as he assessed a room full of nervous laughter and building embarrassment, he added, "Thank you for your concern, do not worry about it. So what if a guy threw a shoe at me?"

#2. "Probably the most impressive part of all was when Bush used the incident's aftermath to deliver an impromptu civics lesson in a downtown Baghdad he couldn't have set foot in eight years ago.
'Let me talk about the guy throwing the shoe,' he said to the assembled journalists. 'That's what happens in free societies.'
Says Watkins, 'Can you imagine what would happen to someone who threw a shoe at Saddam's head?'"

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Shenanigans

Rachel found a black sharpie marker and decided to try/taste it out. Mmmm



Later, I tried to mop the kitchen floor. Do any of you do this?
Lock your children behind bars?
The previous 3 children were always stuck. They just cried and waited for me to finish. But not Rachel. She's a thinker, that's for sure. She found a way out.

Then, when I put her back, she tried a different angle and looked so sad, rejected and betrayed, I had to rescue her.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Happy Face


This is what Camille drew on her shoes during Sacrament meeting yesterday. If its any indication of the way she was feeling at the time, I'm satisfied.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Kite strings

Disclaimer: this is long and could be potentially boring.

Every morning I read the newspaper. I read at the table while Sterling eats breakfast and before the children are up, if I’m lucky. I scan the headlines and read anything that catches my fancy: who Obama is picking to fill leadership roles in D.C.; starving, misplaced children in Congo; praise for a local professor. After I hand the sports section over to Sterling, I leaf through every page of every section. I really enjoy it. On Thursdays, the “Mormon Times” is inserted as section M, where I religiously read Orson Scott Card’s weekly column. Today’s article, "Avoiding the syndrome of shaken faith," was particularly interesting to me.

I guess my interest was peaked when he began questioning things like shaken-baby syndrome, recovered memories (the idea that the human mind represses horrible experiences), post-traumatic stress disorder, and even global warming. As far as I know, these have all been proven, believed and supported by the scientific community for quite sometime, right? I mean, that’s the understanding that I had. Card, however, claims that science to be outdated and false. Other, more current, scientists have since proved the afore-mentioned conditions to be invalid, apparently. Card insists that real science “examines possibilities, tries to disprove its own guesses, and regards no answer as final.” Those who still believe in some of these “out-dated” issues are stepping out of the true scientific system, meaning they have not continued to question, disprove and prove and move forward with other scientific minds.

“Well, that’s interesting,” I think to myself. Life is ever changing. Science is ever changing. One study says one thing, another study says something different. I guess you can find a study to prove almost anything you want. And there certainly is no immediate need or merit to believe what Orson Scott Card writes in the Mormon Times. But there are so many different theories to believe. What is true, valid, real? What is not? How do you know which side of the fence to sit on? And once you pledge your allegiance to a certain theory or belief, you have to wonder, Will this too change? Will science or culture eventually find a different answer? This question may be especially difficult when you hold religious beliefs against cultural beliefs, freedoms, rights and privileges. Do you see where this is going?

Card then brings his argument home and makes it personal by suggesting that, especially members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, we might often be “tossed to and fro” (Ephesians 4:14) by the doctrines and beliefs of the world. We sympathize with cultural beliefs that may even be contrary to our religious beliefs. He laments how many LDS men and women, “…leap like kites into these winds and then cut the thread of faith that would have left them with some connection to truth. Untethered, they blow wherever the wind takes them.”

Have you ever been that kite? Do you know anyone who is holding on to the truth, only by a thin string? How easy it is to be caught up in the wind currents of the world. There are so many wonderful resources, answers, supports, philosophies, in this world that are good. They are good and truthful and uplifting but they are not THE truth. The everlasting and eternal truth of Jesus Christ, which does not change. If we are not anchored to that, we have cut our string and are “tossed to and fro.” Of course, if we cut our string, we do not see ourselves in any way disadvantaged. In fact, we may think we have reached a new understanding, a heightened awareness, or as Card says, “graduated from the gospel.”

Well, this whole line of thought really got me thinking. How strong is my kite-string? What kind of wind currents am I flying in? How anchored am I? More specifically, to what am I anchored?
Of that I am certain, by my own knowledge, testing and testimony. I am not tethered to something unknown or mysterious. Nor is it unapproachable. It is the gospel of Jesus Christ and therein, I find my answers. Card clarifies, “I don’t mean that faithful Saints never question anything. In fact, the gospel of Jesus Christ, just like good science, demands that believers find out the truth of old and new revelations for ourselves.”

We live in a world that is ever changing; science, culture, medicine, global relations, financial markets. I guess a lesson I learned through this article was to stay tied to the things I know are true and as for the rest of the information that I am bombarded with daily, to not be afraid to question, doubt and seek out answers,. Card's final words suggest we be “open-minded enough o keep questioning. To doubt our own doubts. To be skeptical of our skepticism.” Our lives are always in motion. But some truths are just true and they don’t change. It’s nice to have that confidence and stability as we face the daily whirlwind we call life.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

My first award!

The coveted "Your Blog is Fabulous!" award.
Wow! I am honored. I would just like to thank all the little people...all 3 of you...who read my blog and made this award possible. No, seriously folks. Thank you sista Sarah, for awarding me this most highly esteemed award. I feel special.

Now, to get down to the nitty-gritty. There are some rules to adhere by associated with this award (listed below).

Firstly - I must list 5 of my fabulous addictions:
Ice Cream
Blogging - reading, writing, stalking
My husband - wink wink
Reading - especially the final 70-50 pages. I MUST finish!
The Church - and all its auxilliary activities. :)

Secondly - I must pass this award on to 5 other fabulous blogs:
Congratulations, one and all!

Thirdly - I must post the rules:
The rules of this award are:
1. You have to pass it on to 5 other fabulous blogs in a post.
2. You have to list 5 of your fabulous addictions in the post.
3. You must copy and paste the rules and the instructions below in the post.

Instructions: On your post of receiving this award, make sure you include the person that gave you the award and link it back to them. When you post your five winners, make sure you link them as well. To add the award to your post, simply right-click, save image, then "add image" it in your post as a picture so your winners can save it as well. To add it to your sidebar, add the "picture" gadget. Also, don't forget to let your winners know they won an award from you by emailing them or leaving a comment on their blog.

Fun Fun. I'll proudly post this award on my sidebar. Thank you Sarah!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

You need to know how to swim.

Its official! Sydney Brown is a bona fide member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Yep, she's pretty excited about that. We had a lot of family to join with us but certainly missed all those family members who live far away. We mean it. We missed you. Sydney also had some good friends and primary teachers come to support her. Thank you, teachers, neighbors and leaders who have been such a wonderful influence on her. It truly makes a difference!

The morning went smoothly. Everyone was dressed, hair done, teeth brushed, 5 minutes before we were supposed to leave. I made sure Sydney had her extra undies and a clean white towel. I asked Ster if he needed my help packing anything for him. "Nope," he said. I later found him carrying his "essentials" in his trustworthy Darth Vader backpack. I think that may be the first time Darth Vader went to a baptism.
FAMILY PICTURES


A few months ago, we asked Sydney to prepare a Family Home Evening lesson on "Preparing for Baptism." She always teaches wonderful lessons. Attention-getter, stories, games, chalkboard, action activity, hand-outs. And its always totally coordinated and ties in with one central theme. She really is gifted. Anway, she made a list of things to do to prepare for baptism. The first thing on her list was:

1. You need to know how to swim!

I thought that was so cute. She's never had swimming lessons and has always been scared to be completely immersed in water. So it made complete sense even though it wasn't what I would have put at the top of my list. But Sydney has come a long way. The night before her baptism, I asked, again, what one needs to do to be prepared for baptism. She said:

1. Read the scriptures and say your prayers.

Now that's more like it. Atta-girl! Sydney is beautiful. She's genuinely interested in everyone she comes in contact with. She's a great conversationalist. A wonderful teacher. An amazing help around the house. She has an innate gift of testimony that shines through. We just love love love her!!! Congratulations Sydney, on being baptized and recieving the gift of the Holy Ghost. We love you!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Thanksgiving-Photo Essay

We made it to Arizona for Thanksgiving BUT before we stopped at Grandma&Grandpa Browns, we made a few detours.
The fountain at Fountian Hills goes off every hour for about 15 minutes. Its green in March. Millie chased ducks. Well, they all did. (chase ducks, that is)
Then a 1.6 mile hike to the Wind Caves. Yes, that's right 3.2 miles round-trip.











What's a trip to Arizona without climbing the PALMS?

Finally, we made it to
Thanksgiving Dinner!!!
It was yummy. No pictures.
Too busy eating!
After dinner the adults did this...The older kids (and Uncle James) did this...

The younger kids did this...

Rachel did this...Eventually, we all got off our duffs and went for a walk (2miles!).To a park, where we promptly climbed the locked fence, jogger stroller and all, competently reading and disregarding the following sign. We promptly left when we heard sirens. We came home in one day (12 hour drive!!!). We stopped at the Glenn Canyon Dam for lunch and did a lot of this.

Rachel pretty much sums it up.

(Thank you Leisel!)

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Baptism Traditions


This is an open call for tradition ideas. Syd will be baptized this Saturday and so I've been thinking, what kind of tradition would we like to start in our family to mark this significant event? I have several I'm thinking about and some we've already done, but what are your traditions? What do you do?

Monday, November 24, 2008

Thoughts upon leaving

Just a few thoughts before we leave...

When we had only one or two children, when leaving for a trip, each would get their own sippy cup to have by their side and a healthly, delicious snack, their favorite blankie. Now we pack them like sardines in our truck, give them a few saltines and no water because we don't want to stop for too many potty breaks.

I had all the clothes lined up, ready to be packed. Sterling asked if the carry-on would do. Well, we ARE a family of 6 now, going on a 6 day trip. I think we've outgrown the carry-on. (You've got to love the "Brown" mentality there. The sisters-in-law will understand.)

Gotta Go!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Things I love...

..or for which I am grateful.
Saw this commercial many months ago and it made me think of Thanksgiving, so I've been saving it until now. Have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone.


I love sunrises along the Wasatch Front
I love involuntarily catching my breath while watching my children
I love the first breath, first glimpse, when coming upon a hidden mountain lake in the High Uintas
I love a real good cry
I love a real good kiss
I love dancing
I love walking in the morning, after a big snowstorm, when all is subdued, cushioned, muffled by pure, white snow.
I love feeling a connection with friends, though miles separate
I love spending afternoons on my porch with my angel-friends while we watch our children play
I love when Ster and I lock eyes in the middle of a chaotic dinner and he smiles at me and I smile back
I love the Grand Canyon

What do you love?
FYI ps - I always get kinda teary-eyed watching this. Just, you know, if you care. :)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

100 Things

Honestly. This post is mindless avoidance (is that a word, Jared/Diahan?) of household chores. Anything to put off cleaning the bathrooms! Actually, I don't mind cleaning bathrooms. I feel so accomplished and good about myself when I have a clean-smelling, sparkly bathroom. But I digress. I'm avoiding here. So now I will mindlessly blog and copy this post from Veena.

The items in orange are things I have done. Go ahead and peruse if you'd like. Especially if you're avoiding doing anything productive today (like me:)).
1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain (lots of climbing but never, like, to the top.)
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea (does rainstorm count???)
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch (still not good)
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France (saw it in the "Hermitage" in Russia, I thought it was real. Was it?)
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language (not good at it)
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing (just baby stuff)
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant (my Dad did, and I was with him)
44. Visited Africa (my husband did, and I was lonely without him)
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching (saw a whale while in Hawaii)
63. Got flowers for no reason (Thanks Honey!!! xoxo)
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check (to a brother-in-law, noless)
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person (hiked it rim to rim)
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Totally copied a post from someone else's blog to your own

Thanks for the idea Veena. Guess its time to get to work!!! Hi Ho Hi Ho...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tranquility...

...is that the right word?
Does anyone else love moments like this?

And moments like this. But Shhhhh....don't tell Ster I put this picture up. He'd be embarrassed!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Payback

So a while back, I had a birthday. My 35th to be exact. I love my birthday and look forward to each one. I'm not afraid of growing old...yet. 35 didn't seem old. I still feel 24 on the inside, most of the time. Anyhoo, my friend/neighbor/angel-next-door Diahan threw me a surprise birthday party.

Full Backstory: click here Diahan allowed me to accomplish one of my "goals before I die": dance on stage again. To read her take on it and to see our dance, click here.

Well, Diahan's birthday was earlier this month and I asked her what she wanted. Any dreams I could help fulfill?

Diahan's list:

#1. Eat a whole pan of rice krispy treats. DONE!

#2. Act on stage. DONE!

May I now present "What Was I Scared Of?" by Dr. Seuss.

Thanks Becky, for being the camera-woman (kids and all).

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Game Day

OOHHH RISE AND SHOUT...THE COUGARS ARE OUT! We went to BYU's final home game of the season yesterday. It was so much fun! The kids enjoyed singing the Cougar fight song and listening to the cannon boom everytime we made a touchdown. They loved looking for Cosmo. Unfortunately, he never positioned himself very near us. But mostly, I think they liked climbing up and down from their seats through the guardrail. Parker would just hang and hang and laugh and climb.
As for Ster and I, we just enjoyed being together as a family. What a great day!

The Cougars made a touchdown WHILE I was taking this picture. heehee

Friday, November 7, 2008

Road Burn

Look at my poor baby's toes!!!! "Someone" let her outside and she crawled all the way into the middle of the cul-de-sac. The asphalt totally ripped up her chubby little toes, and this is about a week after it happened. Poor Thing!

(Read on for Rachel's belated birthday report.)

Birthdays and such

Finally getting around to posting about Rachel's birthday. She is such a funny little girl and a wonderful addition to our family! If you asked others, they may remark, in the nicest way possible, that Rachel is not the "friendliest" girl around. She doesn't enjoy large crowds which pretty much makes any outing kind of crazy. School functions, church activities, church in general, even family get-togethers. (I mean, come on, the family is only getting bigger. :)) And she is awfully attached to her mother-and that's ok. One of the things I enjoy most about her is that she is very cuddly. That kind of balances out the Always-wanting-to-be-held factor. Most of the time, when she is in my arms, she wants to be cheek-to-cheek, which I LOVE. Cute baby. I wouldn't trade her for the world. I hope I never forget the sound of "Ga?!" I need to record her saying that.


Anyway, we celebrated her birthday on Oct. 25, with cousin Ryan. She was cautious and taste-tested every gift, you know, just in case. Then it was on to dessert. And, thanks to the strong and wonderful genes passed on from her Grandpa Dewey AND Grandpa Brown, she went straight for the ICE CREAM. Atta Girl!!!
WE LOVE YOU RACHEL! Oh yes we doooo. We love you Rachel and will be truuuue. When you're not near us, we're bluuuue. Oh Rachel, we love you!!! Rah rah rahrahrah. Rah rah rahrahrah. Goooooooooooo Rachel!!!!
(Stay tuned for Sydney's birthday report.)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Affluenza


Funny thing happened the other day. Sterling was away late one night and Sydney came into my room, got in bed with me and just wanted to talk. That's the best!!! I love just talking with her. Anyway, my bed faces my closet and as Syd's thoughts flew from topic to topic, she said, "Mom, someday I want a closet like yours." I was kind of taken back and asked why? Turns out, mine is bigger than hers. And that got me thinking...not about closets. Thinking about wanting things and being satisfied with what we have and entitlement and indulgence and making do and "Little House on the Prairie." I often think about the Engles family. Caroline always seemed so happy and satisfied, baking bread, mending clothes by hand, making butter. The children were too busy doing chores to get into too much trouble. Church was a central, fundamental part of their community. Community...that's another thing. Everyone was linked, not by texting, IMing, blogging, cell phones, CNN...whatever. They were linked...unified, because they had to be to survive in the world they lived in. Anyway, I digress.
So Sydney wants a closet like mine, I want a closet like my neighbor and she probably wants one like someone else and the vicious spiral continues. Never satisfied, always wanting more. These symptoms are almost always indicative of an ailment that plagues me every so often.
Diagnosis: Affluenza
. The strong desire to have more or to have as much or be as affluent as I feel others around me may be. Sometimes referred to as the Green-Eyed Monster or the Greedy Gimmies. It is a serious illness that can jeopardize your happiness (temporary and eternal) and negatively influences your ability to enjoy the amazing life you already have.

And quite frankly, I think affluenza has become an epidemic in America. But that is fodder for another post. Before I go too political or philosophical or get drastic with my generalities...let's just bring it back to ME. ;D So, how do I resolve this illness I come down with every so often? I've been blessed to have spent time outside of the United States and I've seen others live in less than ideal circumstances and STILL BE HAPPY! I rely on those experiences and memories heavily, to keep me grounded. I have sooo much. The poorest among us would be the richest in so many other countries in this world. Who are we kidding? We, Americans, have it REALLY good!

Sometimes I like to turn off the air-conditioning on a really hot July day, just to remind myself that other people don't have air-conditioning. Sometimes I walk my child to school (or ride bikes) when I'd really rather not, to remind myself that some children don't get to go to school. Sometimes I use duct tape to fix a box or broom or hanger, just to remind myself that I can make do. I don't mind shopping second-hand...for christmas, birthdays, home-decor, anything. USE IT UP, WEAR IT OUT, MAKE IT DO OR DO WITHOUT!
Those are some of my home-remedy treatments for you. Of course you always have to have a healthy dose of service for others. Nothing else makes a difference if you're not reaching outside yourself. And then, for good measure, make sure you're following the fundamentals of the gospel. Prayer, scriptures, etc. You know the drill.
How do YOU stay grounded and untouched by the nasty Affluenza bug???

So this final video clip from HSM3 (High School Musical 3) popped into my head when I was thinking about writing this post. My kids have been singing this song most of the week. "I want it all! Want it, want it, want it." I keep telling them, "Keep on dreaming! Dreaming, dreaming, dreaming." I know, nice Mom.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Waking up early

Ok, so it wasn't that early. 7:30am. But Sterling wasn't home last night and the kids are really tired...still sleeping. So I had the house to myself for a while. I approached the front door, thinking I would go get the newspaper when I noticed the computer humming. I must not have turned it off before bed last night. Oops. Then I noticed the window was still open. Double Oops. Then I noticed the faint glow peeking under each layer of the blind. And I remembered...

I remember loving mornings...before kids, that is. When I was in my teen years, I loved morning. Atypical? Yes, but so was I. But now, with four kids running the house, I'm just too tired to wake up any earlier than is absolutely necessary. Call it my anemia, staying-up-too-late-reading, white blood cell mystery or just plain motherhood, or a combination of them all -- I find it very difficult to wake up before 7:30. Sterling always wakes up first and stumbles into the bathroom where he is soon joined by Parker and Camille, who are fascinated with him shaving. (I remember that). Soon enough, Rachel is crying and Sydney is rolling around. But when Sterling is away, for some unknown reason, the kids don't wake up nearly as early.

Anyway, the thing I loved most about mornings back then was being the ONLY ONE up. I was the only one awake in my house who would witness the sun coming up. If they didn't witness it happening, how could they know if the sun came up striped that day or not. What if it came up backwards or oblong or blinking? How could they really know if they never really saw it happen? What actually happens is far more spectacular than that.

The blinds were glowing, trying to hold back something amazing that was happening behind them and a vague sense of the familiar started to tickle forgotton places in my brain. So I peeked, anticipation, renewal of a lost self seemed to be found somewhere in that action. I peeked and found something I hadn't seen in a very long time. Flames of orange, red, yellow and the blendings of those colors, fired out of the mountains, burning the sky until they almost touched my house. When my breath came back, I left my house and entered this brilliant morning just before the sun itself, made its entrance. I knew this was a place I belonged but had not been for a while. But the morning did not care and welcomed me with all her vibrancy.

picture taken from my front porch

Morning's entrance had faded by 8:00 and it was business as usual. The color, private tranquility and vibrant, pure aliveness had faded to grays and blues, shrouded in a haze of pollution and cold weather. The kids were up and, after a hug, kiss and loving validation, turned to Curious George on the TV. Next its breakfast, chores, making ourselves presentable and off to school and errands, hoping we have enough candy for trick-or-treaters tonight.

front porch

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